Life is precious and all too often we take it for granted. Tomorrow begins a healing journey for me. How bittersweet this month shall be.
Thursday, March 9, 2017
End of a Legacy
Today I was once again reminded of how precious life is and the gift we've been given. Stanley Pranin Sensei passed away on 3/7/2017. His dedication to Aikido shall always be remembered. His passing was very near the anniversary of Kwabe Sensei's passing; marking March as a memorable month- this was also an anniversary of my paternal grandmother's passing.
Life is precious and all too often we take it for granted. Tomorrow begins a healing journey for me. How bittersweet this month shall be.
Life is precious and all too often we take it for granted. Tomorrow begins a healing journey for me. How bittersweet this month shall be.
Sunday, March 5, 2017
Here's to making things stick
Accountability. A word that is often spoke of, but very difficult to achieve – especially when it means we need to challenge ourselves in our habits, our choices, and our behavior. Recent developments in my health, home, and Work situations have forced me to truly begin to be more accountable to my own self-care, self-preservation, and learn more about my own self worth.
Somes times being accountable means doing things that scare the hell out of yourself or things that are completely new in order to break the cycle. If I sit down and think about where I am in my life, there are many things that I would like to work on, change, start, stop, I just improve. The tough part is finding where to begin without being so overwhelmed that I try in a wrong direction.
In reading a friends recent blog, I was once again reminded of one problem that I continually have that leads to some of my downfalls, that is the act of forgiveness. I am referring to forgiving myself but I make mistakes or feel that I have fallen short on goals that I have said in the past. My high level of anxiety and energy around the continual needed to feel that I must change and improve sometimes the rails even my best efforts.
For the first time in a long time, I attended a group that I have wanted to be a part of for a long time it seemed to have things come up or even just plain lame excuses for not going. Why? Because this group is all about self in power meant, growth, accountability, and doing things that scare the hell out of you. It's that last part that probably kept me at bay. I'm glad I finally made a group meeting because I met some wonderful women and we started an accountability group. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and the timing of this group meeting came right behind an email from a friend out of the blue that may offer me some direction out of a job that I have been dissatisfied with for a very long time. The trifecta in all of this – this weekend was more physical healing for me and I actually found myself involved in watching if you documentaries that speak to empowerment, spirituality, balance, and self worth. It seems that the stars are finally beginning to align in the messages that I and receiving – I need but listen to the right ones and stay focused. Back to the drawing board of goalsetting and forgiving myself but making things stick.
Inn Saei
Somes times being accountable means doing things that scare the hell out of yourself or things that are completely new in order to break the cycle. If I sit down and think about where I am in my life, there are many things that I would like to work on, change, start, stop, I just improve. The tough part is finding where to begin without being so overwhelmed that I try in a wrong direction.
In reading a friends recent blog, I was once again reminded of one problem that I continually have that leads to some of my downfalls, that is the act of forgiveness. I am referring to forgiving myself but I make mistakes or feel that I have fallen short on goals that I have said in the past. My high level of anxiety and energy around the continual needed to feel that I must change and improve sometimes the rails even my best efforts.
For the first time in a long time, I attended a group that I have wanted to be a part of for a long time it seemed to have things come up or even just plain lame excuses for not going. Why? Because this group is all about self in power meant, growth, accountability, and doing things that scare the hell out of you. It's that last part that probably kept me at bay. I'm glad I finally made a group meeting because I met some wonderful women and we started an accountability group. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and the timing of this group meeting came right behind an email from a friend out of the blue that may offer me some direction out of a job that I have been dissatisfied with for a very long time. The trifecta in all of this – this weekend was more physical healing for me and I actually found myself involved in watching if you documentaries that speak to empowerment, spirituality, balance, and self worth. It seems that the stars are finally beginning to align in the messages that I and receiving – I need but listen to the right ones and stay focused. Back to the drawing board of goalsetting and forgiving myself but making things stick.
Inn Saei
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