The (continuous) winds of change

Without sounding cliché', there comes a time (or in my case TIMES) in everyone's life where you have to dig deep down and ask yourself, "what do I want to do with this life?".  I do this to an almost ritualistic level.  Problem is, my definition seems to keep changing and I cannot wrap my head around what "thing" will stick and give me the more clear cut direction.  I feel as though there is something that I am waiting for, but don't know what that would be.

Awhile back, a very spiritually gifted friend who had done healing work on me indicated they sensed I had someone or something looking over me and also asking me what I was waiting for.  That was most curious and I have wondered since that session exactly what that means.  Is this, perhaps, the beginning of a more true direction for me.  The last several years have been the most stressful and unhealthy for me in many ways.  I have, admittedly, back-burnered myself for the sake of caregiving and a career full of promises that did not deliver.

Of the things I have tried the most, getting back on track fitness wise has been more successful.  The unfortunately part is that in learning what I truthfully can and cannot do, I have had to back out of something that has brought the most to my life - and that is a tough struggle for me.  Those I've trained and traveled with over the last few years have become a 2nd family to me.  But the one consolation is that we are still family, just in a different way.

So here's to yet another path, another direction, another set of challenges ...